there has to be something bigger than this

by shooting in the dark and aiming at errant moons that dodge the bulletwords that fly…

Or maybe something else, something lesser, something smaller, like insects in our rib cages, running through our hearts, like bees that make nests right in there and pollinate our blood until all is honey…

Now to switch gears, out of poetica, and talk about the barebones of writing words on pages and getting pages into semblance of fictive narratives…let’s talk about motivations and characters and that main stupid rule of what characters want and oh they need to want something always want something. Don’t you think this is basically shaped by our own culture, the culture of mass-capitalism,  the church of money, were everyone needs to want and want and want and when they get they change and want some more. want books want new tv want sandwiches want to get laid want conversations want loneliness want want want

I mean, I don’t think when they tell all those writers out there striking word to stone that characters need to want that it’s not a reflection of our own culture of wanting (it’s not making a statement about the wanting) but rather it is a symptom of the disease of our culture. They needless wantwantwant, and by making the characters all motivation focused we are creating more of this disease, we are spreading it, infecting it, instead of making a comment on it we are basically showing it and showing what people want and wanting and more wanting and the fact that we need characters want as part of the mass media consumption we are just looking for a way to placate ourselves

to tell ourselves it’s okay to want because hey lookit this here, all of my media tells me it’s okay

but what about lost and unmotivated characters, characters who are awake and not yet controlled by desire or have no desire or want and see the rest as sleep walking through everything, they are searching but not through motivation, they are just searching through searching, like characters who are not controlled by meaningless desire

and motivation is such a poor thing, it’s a cheap thing, it’s a quick and easy thing for characters to have. How do we define a character by what they want? Doesn’t that say something about our modern day existence of WalMart and commercials and Amazon and all that noise that commercial noise that drowns everything else out? That we define a character by wanting means we define ourselves by wanting, and isn’t there something more to the definition of who we are than just by what we want, what commercial speaks the truest to us in that moment?

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we want to be devoured by want  to be devoured


4 thoughts on “there has to be something bigger than this

  1. Oh and examples of the characters who are not-wanting-
    Alyosha in Brother’s Karamazov
    Ishmael in Moby Dick (and in fact the almost villain Ahab is consumed by want)
    the main character in The Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
    the main character in Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance

    and etc etc etc, I’m sure there’s more. That’s just off the top of my head

  2. I mean, what if, instead of want and need and desire driving a narrative, it was instead defined and driven by a joy of life and depression of life and was made more readable by beauty moments in all moments, and was more a celebration of everything, even the dark depressing hours when everything is bad and the world crumbles and are lit by the holy hopeful hours when things seem for once worthwhile, a more multifacated approach to existence

    Where characters are defined by their experiences and memories and who they are rather than what they want or what job they currently hold.

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