Lightning #360DaysofSymbols

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Day 20 of 360 Days of Symbols. Today’s symbol? Lightning.

Those wolves are made of lightning and not that kind either, not the kind you dig up from ground clouds no, this is the kind of lightning that curses you. It follows your blood, moving down your genes. It infects you, a parasite lightning, running wolves in your blood.

And each generation after has a bit f madness to it. The wolf comes out sparking like a battery, clouds for fur, eyes sunrise and they hunt and bring back the kill. The kill is what you most fear, and what you most desire. Lightning wolves know these things. They know they are the same thing. The thing that burns inside of you.

 

Something nihilistic and maybe a little sad

There is an alchemy used in the process of making coffee, something I never realized until I started using a French Press. It’s weird how, with other ways of brewing the process is mostly hidden. You put in grounds, put in water, push a button. The grounds are already ground. All of that.

Just push a button. There you go. K-Cups, percolators, coffee pots, etc. There is a remove from the transformation process, your hands are not involved, your mind, etc. You are just communicating with a machine.

I also took a look at the pour over method, which is almost a mad scientist lab in look and feel. Tubes and beakers oh my. I haven’t actually used one, too pricey for me right now. But the French Press, yes. There is some of it still. Grinding the beans (I want to get a hand mill, make it even moreso…but again, not cheap), putting in the right measurements. Boiling water. Pouring, swirling. Setting the grounds. Letting it sit and dream for awhile and get the dreams infused into the cup itself.

A process. No longer removed from the individual but instead a function of the individual. It becomes more than just simplicity, but extends beyond that. even cleaning the bones of the tools, setting them back in, creating new. Let it sleep at night, wake with boiling and light.

Transformation. Something born new each morning.


 

I’m also thinking about fall now and being someplace closed off now, just trees and some people but barely anything nearby. Dead leaves and spiders are everywhere. You can see the clouds and the clouds are big grey cement things suspended over sky, waiting to rain down. This is the occult season. When hidden things devour you while you sleep. Not monsters but memories of being a monster.

Some doors in houses are better left closed. Some doors lead to ghost homes. Is it a mirror beneath all of it? Focus now. Wait now. Don’t drown in the light.


 

Doing a nano thing. I want to keep the idea loose. Something where the structure does not dictate the choices of the work, but instead lets the work breathe. I need a structure that’s permeable, movable, something that flexes and contracts and expands when I need it. I want it to be fractured, roaming. One moment first person character you meet only for a second in a different situation, the next third person voyage, and another scattered pages blowing into your face.

This needs to be a form that dictates itself as it moves. A chimera. Another thing, the alchemy of writing. The occult of words. Signs are sigils are the languages we don’t speak.

I want to build the story on random blocks. I have the basics of plot, of theme, of setting. But each day to day I’ll use tarot to dictate actions. I’ll use the I Ching when I feel like, or runes, or whatever is at hand. Throwing coins in wishing wells. Whatever. I will also randomly pull stuff from Plotto and symbols each day from the Book of Symbols.

Yet each piece a puzzle piece of the whole picture. Each thing changing, burning, moving. When you look down at the individual you can see beauty & poetry on the microscopic. Self contained environment. But zoom out take as a whole and a new pattern emerges. Something nihilistic and maybe a little sad. The world is ending. The world is always ending. Yet at the same time maybe it’s not. Maybe it’s all an illusion of a paranoid  sociopath whose words are infectious, are poetry, and they catch from person to person, each who follows the call of the mad words.

The reality of it all is the reader’s perception.

I want this book to bleed into your life. To become your waking thoughts. Always wondering what is real anymore.

Rain #360DaysofSymbols

Day 17 of 360 Days of Symbols. Today’s symbol? Rain.

The ghosts only come out on days of rain. The rest of the year they are hiding and silently, darting between shadows and light, a pocket universe were only the spirits exist. Days of rain, on the other hand, are threshold days. Days of the wobbly realities. Of a time when the skin  the universe is permeable, bruised, ready to bleed through skin and shirt.

The ghosts are not like what you expect them to be. When they walk they walk sideways, against walls and buildings and sidewalk. They exist like two dimensional beings. Living cartoons. Moving around and through you.

They contain memories of the dead inside. When they speak they only whisper the past.

Wind #360DaysofSymbols

Day 17 of 360 Days of Symbols. Today’s symbol? Wind.

The master say what we all say all the time, that the world would end with snakes on the wind. That the world would end with the whisper of their kisses, being blown across arid plains. And that the world would end when the eyeless giant wakes in the sea, and spreads winter across the world with his ice and laugh come across come alive on the wind.

The wind will bring us all down, they say, The snakes be the first sign, then all sign after sign. They come on down, they blow on down. And when we rise up to see it all, the giant will tell. We got the tattoos of kings on our hearts. The giant knows that sign, he can read us all inside and out. Not even needing to pop us open like the master does and open our souls in our chests. No need to do that at all.

He is the plague lord, the water frost, the one with the wind in his belly.